The Green Crystal Glass

Where were you? When everything was falling apart
All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang
And all I needed was a call that never came
To the corner of first and Amistad

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you? where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

In the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who’s ever known
Who I am, who I’m not, who I want to be
No way to know how long she will be next to me

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

Early morning, City breaks
I’ve been calling for years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never send me no letters
You got some kind of nerve, taking all you want

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Where were you where were you

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me

Why’d you have to wait?
To find me, to find me

Rasanya segala hal bercampur menjadi satu. Gw lelah, gw marah, dan gw 'sakit'. Tapi gw ngga punya tempat untuk mencurahkan itu semua, to place 'the darkest part of me'. Gw jadi labil dan pengen nyakitin orang lain.

Mendadak seorang teman lama mempost tulisan di blognya. Tulisan dia isinya selalu tentang 'kelabilan'nya, atau hidupnya yang sepertinya hampir selalu labil.

Hari ini gw baru membaca postnya itu. Topiknya kali ini tentang "Dunia sebagai Panggung Sandiwara". Kata temen gw, 'posnya udah ngga se-labil dulu'. Ehm, bener jg sih.. Tp menurut gw, dia masih labil. Hehe..

Tapi, entah kenapa, kelabilannya malah membuat gw bersyukur. Gw bersyukur karena gw ngga 'tersangkut' dalam mindset seperti itu. Gw bersyukur karena gw punya temen2 yang bisa ngebantu gw, temen2 yang punya pemikiran terbuka dan bisa memberikan kritikan yang membangun. Gw bersyukur karena gw dikasih kesempatan untuk menjauh dari dia.

"Every cloud has it silver lining"

Thanks God, gw punya nyokap yang terus berusaha menanamkan kebaikan dalam diri gw, paling ngga gw jadinya ngga selalu berpikir jelek tentang seseorang.

Sigh.. Sepertinya gw harus mendedikasikan post ini untuk teman gw yang 'labil' itu. Thanks karena udah 'mengingatkan' gw untuk memaafkan orang lain, untuk selalu berpikir positif, untuk selalu melakukan hal2 positif. (thanks to my mom too, you are so annoying, but yet you are a good person)

P.S: ini post gw yg ke 200 loohh.. XD YAY!! *tar! tar!* --> suara petasan